me, the one who love the cats.......

arini bulat hilang..
last i met him around 11sumthing, tu pn nek bilik sbb nk amek helmet..
he was there lying on the bed, doing nothing, and i pinch him a bit, on the cheek side
abes keje kt hatcheri around 1230, not really an hour after..
naik bilik nk amek tupperware and he's not there??
seriously i act cool when i didn't see him at that time..
it's okay, maybe he's somewhere near...
later i catch him back :-)

after i went back from buying my nasi ayam, which i bought bcoz of him

i went up the stairs, trying to call out his name loudly as i always did..

but there's no sign of him, anywhere..

where did he possibly go???????

he not the type of cat that will stray around....

the most extreme cases is he got lost, but only to different floors..

i end up searching for him for a couple of rounds around the block
frustratedly no sign of him also..
ok, i'll eat first then maybe he show up...
ironically, after 2-3spoons i will go straight to the door just incase he's there..
..........and he's not.......again and again until i lose my appetite...

abes je mkn, not really i guess..

i went back to do another couple of rounds around the ia block

until my leg gets tired and stiff...

and my eyes starts getting teary,haha.........

and i don't know what to do........

all in my mind is 'where's my bulat, did anybody see him??'

but the question didn't answered.....

in the end i went back to my room, and end up crying
as loudly as i can...............
seriously, i'm not used to losing something that i treasure the most....
and that's why i limits myself of not having best friends,only closed friends??
even breaking up is hard for me....
and right now some of my friends making jokes bout bulat lost when i post it in fb...
yeah, to you maybe you could laugh out aloud bcoz it's not really matter
i don't give a damn of what you're saying..
i just want my bulat back..............

i am sorry for posting this thing if i make anyone terasa...

i am truely,madly, deeply sorry if i make you one...

but here, it's my own fault...

i knew me myself can't handle of losing something when i love it so much....

but still yet i'm still so so degil to pick up that black comot cat, just to feed him...

and i love him more and more without noticing.....

and right now i'm sobbing myself because of my foolishness,hahaha

late in the evening, i realise...
i want to go back searching for him...
if and only if i have yet to found him, maybe it's not my rezeki to make him my beloved....
i miss you bulat, sorry for loving you so much that you have to run away from me...
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....i'm crying,wth..haha...
astaghfirullahalazim....k2, i better stop now before i make piles of teary water, haha...

luahan,keluhan?...nope,hanya statement semata

kadang2 hati ni terasa
kenapa aku tak macam orang len ea
umur sebaya aku semua dah ada serba serbi

Blackberry, Samsung Galaxy, Motor, Kereta

Pandai make up, pandai bergaya, pakai celak sane sini, pakai shawl kemain lawanya

tujuan aku tulis entry ni bukan bermaksud aku nak menyesali nasib diri
cuma aku pelik, kenapa aku tak macam diorang
mungkin masa aku tak sampai lagi kot..
tapi sampai bila tu...teringin juga nak bergaya
tapi tak reti, xda curve pun..nak make up, pakai foundation pun tak lepas, eja ni pn tak tau betul ke tak...

pilih2 baju, dress up pun, kawan cakap taste2 mak...
nak beli brg pun berkira2, siap bajet duit lagi tu..

dinner hari tu, muka ni juga muka yg paling tak make up, sama je
lawak...haha..
xpelakan, rezeki masing2, tuah masing2, kubur pun nanti masing2

bagi aku, cukup la ape yg ade skrg ni
walaupun still pakai handset nokia cikai je
walaupun still pakai baju besar2, tudung selekeh2
aku rasa aku lagi happy..
tak perlu nak risau macam2..
cukuplah, alhamdulillah..
sekarang tengah nak didik diri agar rasa lebih bersyukur

hehe, peace, assalamualaikum

i'm helpless

why am i always like this
always so hard in making decision
always have to depend on people

why am i always like this

always have to take care of people's  heart

while my heart aches, without that person knowing

do you think i want it to be like this?
do you think i would preferably see you suffers?
you making it hard on me
can't you see????

please...

i'm sensitive person too

i have feelings, i do have heart too

so please, don't make it hard for me...

if only decision is easy to be made

then all of us doesn't have to be in this situation

i'm sorry..
it's my fault..
i know..just wanted to ignore..
but i can't...
i'm sorry