my birthday!

1/6/12

Again writing up things happened on my birthday..

Tahun lepas da tulis da, berjela lg.. cume last2 xpost pun..

Sbb time tu cm bru bjinak2 dgn blogging2 nih

Well, pape pun I wanna to say thank you to all those wishes I received…

Not forget my Creator, for giving me chances to still be alive and fulfilling my job as a muslim

This time birthday is a little bit difference bcoz we’d celebrated it..

Normally I don’t do such stuff…it’s my friends idea btw…

Special thanks to my budak kecik lg cekeding, effenddy malek coz trying to put some act b4 da party…

Simple but nice…and btw, I totally love vienetta ice cream!!hehe…thanks for the bear n vicks too

I wish you could be my vicks eternal supply,heee

Thanks also to my other friends, shilla miraie and zetty…

Yg brusaha untuk tidak mengantoikan diri anda…syabas anda berjaya (tp markah 6/10 jela,haha)..

Pada penceria majlis encik ayie dan safuan..thanks too...

To those who wish for me, jgn terasa kalo aku xletak name sekor2 kt dlm ni (aku lempang laju2 t taw la),

Thanks again and insyallah I wish the same thing 4 all of you..

Citt, da mcm acknowledgement la plak kn…

Akibat kesan2 dari penulisan final draft hari tu yg xhilang2,haha….

I love you, my family, my BF (insyallah forever), my friends, my exschoolmates…sape2 g ahh

Sayang korang sume ketat2 ea….yg laki2 tlg jgn prsan,haha

K, gud nyte..time to isya’ and sleep…wish you all the best…..

Pilihan ditangan anda??betul ke???

berat kepala bila fikir psl apa nak buat lpas grad...
kalau dari dulu score, mesti skrg tak susah nak fikir, tggu je peluang kerja dtg...
tapi laa ni, pointer pun tak sehebat mana...mesti la tak boleh nak duduk diam je kan...
kepala pun naik serabut bila fikir ' nk smbung master ke keje dlu ek??'
mak pun da start mbebel tanya psl mcm mana nk smbg master...
opinion tuan punya bdn skit pun tak nak dgar...

fine, nak orang sambung boleh tu boleh, tapi ada syarat dia!!..

Dengan ini, anda Puan Hamidah Jamlus haruslah berjanji agar menunaikan permintaan Cik Shazwani Binti Mohamed:

-wanie nak buat lesen kereta n motor
-wanie nak keje part time dulu then baru smbg master bln3 thun depan
-provide me at least a kapcai so senang sket nk g ulang alik dr umah sewa ke umt

hurm, ok tak kertas cadangan aku???...masih dlm proses perangkaan...
insyallah dlm 2 3hari ni, aku propose ape yg aku tulis ni kt Mem besar,huhu
doakan aku berjaya,wohoooooo....

me, the one who love the cats.......

arini bulat hilang..
last i met him around 11sumthing, tu pn nek bilik sbb nk amek helmet..
he was there lying on the bed, doing nothing, and i pinch him a bit, on the cheek side
abes keje kt hatcheri around 1230, not really an hour after..
naik bilik nk amek tupperware and he's not there??
seriously i act cool when i didn't see him at that time..
it's okay, maybe he's somewhere near...
later i catch him back :-)

after i went back from buying my nasi ayam, which i bought bcoz of him

i went up the stairs, trying to call out his name loudly as i always did..

but there's no sign of him, anywhere..

where did he possibly go???????

he not the type of cat that will stray around....

the most extreme cases is he got lost, but only to different floors..

i end up searching for him for a couple of rounds around the block
frustratedly no sign of him also..
ok, i'll eat first then maybe he show up...
ironically, after 2-3spoons i will go straight to the door just incase he's there..
..........and he's not.......again and again until i lose my appetite...

abes je mkn, not really i guess..

i went back to do another couple of rounds around the ia block

until my leg gets tired and stiff...

and my eyes starts getting teary,haha.........

and i don't know what to do........

all in my mind is 'where's my bulat, did anybody see him??'

but the question didn't answered.....

in the end i went back to my room, and end up crying
as loudly as i can...............
seriously, i'm not used to losing something that i treasure the most....
and that's why i limits myself of not having best friends,only closed friends??
even breaking up is hard for me....
and right now some of my friends making jokes bout bulat lost when i post it in fb...
yeah, to you maybe you could laugh out aloud bcoz it's not really matter
i don't give a damn of what you're saying..
i just want my bulat back..............

i am sorry for posting this thing if i make anyone terasa...

i am truely,madly, deeply sorry if i make you one...

but here, it's my own fault...

i knew me myself can't handle of losing something when i love it so much....

but still yet i'm still so so degil to pick up that black comot cat, just to feed him...

and i love him more and more without noticing.....

and right now i'm sobbing myself because of my foolishness,hahaha

late in the evening, i realise...
i want to go back searching for him...
if and only if i have yet to found him, maybe it's not my rezeki to make him my beloved....
i miss you bulat, sorry for loving you so much that you have to run away from me...
heeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee....i'm crying,wth..haha...
astaghfirullahalazim....k2, i better stop now before i make piles of teary water, haha...

luahan,keluhan?...nope,hanya statement semata

kadang2 hati ni terasa
kenapa aku tak macam orang len ea
umur sebaya aku semua dah ada serba serbi

Blackberry, Samsung Galaxy, Motor, Kereta

Pandai make up, pandai bergaya, pakai celak sane sini, pakai shawl kemain lawanya

tujuan aku tulis entry ni bukan bermaksud aku nak menyesali nasib diri
cuma aku pelik, kenapa aku tak macam diorang
mungkin masa aku tak sampai lagi kot..
tapi sampai bila tu...teringin juga nak bergaya
tapi tak reti, xda curve pun..nak make up, pakai foundation pun tak lepas, eja ni pn tak tau betul ke tak...

pilih2 baju, dress up pun, kawan cakap taste2 mak...
nak beli brg pun berkira2, siap bajet duit lagi tu..

dinner hari tu, muka ni juga muka yg paling tak make up, sama je
lawak...haha..
xpelakan, rezeki masing2, tuah masing2, kubur pun nanti masing2

bagi aku, cukup la ape yg ade skrg ni
walaupun still pakai handset nokia cikai je
walaupun still pakai baju besar2, tudung selekeh2
aku rasa aku lagi happy..
tak perlu nak risau macam2..
cukuplah, alhamdulillah..
sekarang tengah nak didik diri agar rasa lebih bersyukur

hehe, peace, assalamualaikum

i'm helpless

why am i always like this
always so hard in making decision
always have to depend on people

why am i always like this

always have to take care of people's  heart

while my heart aches, without that person knowing

do you think i want it to be like this?
do you think i would preferably see you suffers?
you making it hard on me
can't you see????

please...

i'm sensitive person too

i have feelings, i do have heart too

so please, don't make it hard for me...

if only decision is easy to be made

then all of us doesn't have to be in this situation

i'm sorry..
it's my fault..
i know..just wanted to ignore..
but i can't...
i'm sorry